i'll be

For a long time, I tried to become someone I thought others would accept.

I made myself smaller.
I put my own feelings aside.
I tried to be what people needed me to be, sometimes without even realizing I was losing touch with myself.

In 2020, I made my major debut as JHONATAN. Since then, music has taken me through countless encounters, dreams, unexpected turns, and moments when I had to look honestly at who I was and who I wanted to become.

And somehow, through it all, music kept finding its way back to me.

Now, under the name ell, I'm choosing to begin again.

''i'll be''is not a song about being saved by someone else.

It's not about becoming perfect.
And it's not about erasing the past.

It's about looking at everything I've been through the wounds, the mistakes, the uncertainty, the parts of myself I once wanted to hide and choosing to accept them as part of who I am.

Then, from there, choosing who I want to become.

I'll be some one that can love.

Someone who can love.
Someone who can live without lies between their heart and who they really are.
Someone who can finally embrace themselves, too.

I'm still becoming that person.

That's why it's not ''I am.''
It's ''I'll be.''

A promise from who I am today to the person I'm still becoming.

And I hope that, somewhere in this song, you find a little piece of yourself, too.