I dropped the glass — or maybe not
でも割れたのは、たぶん、わたしの fault
言い返せなかった言葉が
Cold like silence, left on the desk
I wasn't angry, maybe just loud inside
たぶん、怒ったんじゃない
ただ、どうしても伝えたかった
でも──
声が出なかったから
I made a sound instead
怒ったあとに残ったのは
罪悪感よりも、静けさだった
……いや、ちがう
ほんとうは怖かったんだと思う
誰かにじゃなくて
そのときの自分に
怒った理由は
いまもうまく言えない
でも
あれは「さみしさ」の服を着た
感情だったのかもしれない
“Don’t be mad”って言われるたびに
感情にフタをして
I locked it up, double key, no sound
怒ったことを正当化するつもりはない
でも、それを理由に
誰かを壊さなかったことは
Not bad, right?
怒ったわたしは
たしかにここにいた
でもその怒りを
どこにも投げなかった
それだけで
I felt I could walk again
A little straighter this time
You made me mad
声が震えるくらいには
わたし、たしかに怒ってた
でも
なんにも壊さなかったんだ
I held the fire
And I stayed
Mad, but not bad
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Shuka / Room no.38
This song explores the emotion behind anger.
It reflects the feelings that could not be spoken and the choice not to break anything.
There is meaning in what was held back.
The title carries a quiet sense of acceptance.
Artist Profile
Shuka / Room no.38
shuka / Room no.38. While centered on hiphop and J-pop, I focus not on expressing emotions as they are, but on putting into words the process in which emotions waver, break, and distort. Rather than offering healing or answers, I value leaving untouched areas and ambiguous in-between states exactly as they are. I see music not as something that heightens emotion, but as a rhythm through which thought moves forward. I move across genres such as ballads , rock, EDM, and K-pop, choosing the form that best fits the expression. Sincerity over clarity. The present moment over completion. These sounds and words are not a story of searching for myself, but a record of being alive here and now. The form of each song is not limited to ballads, EDM, or hip hop. Starting from poetry, I choose only the sounds that are necessary. I value the uniqueness of what only I can write.
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