The First Death

The heart stops moving.
You can laugh, or cry yet feel nothing.
Living feels empty, dying feels the same.
And still, a faint breath remains.

The First Death is the fourth chapter of Kusoyakutatazu,
a song born from the quiet depths of depression and suicidal thoughts.
It does not glorify life or condemn death,
but lingers in the fragile space that lies between them.

Trying to live hurts.
Trying to die hurts.
In that endless pendulum, the mind collapses into stillness.
This song suggests what if you die once,
just to look at the present again?

Like the Buddhist concept of Ku (emptiness),
after letting go of meaning,
what remains is simply breath fragile, but real.
The First Death stares into the void between life and death,
and finds, within that silence, a trace of existence.

The music was created using the AI composition tool Suno.
While the vocals and sounds were generated by AI,
the lyrics, structure, editing, and final output
are entirely original works by the artist.

The jacket visual was produced with the AI video generator Sora
depicting a figure stepping across the yellow line of a train platform,
a quiet metaphor for the border between life and death.

After being born in Prologue,
bound by love in Suki Suki Aggression!,
finding a voice in Globus Hystericus,
and distorting reality in Alice in Fast-Forward,
this chapter The First Death
marks the moment of dying once,
only to truly see the present.

It is both the end of everything,
and the beginning of something new.