Lyric

I should hate you by now

After all

You said those things to me

That night you let me

Walk home alone

I should be able

To hate you by now

I have plenty of reasons

But the hardest part is

That I still can't bring myself

To hate you

You knew exactly

What would hurt me

And yet

You said it anyway

You weren't angry

You weren't drunk

You were just tired

Restless

And you looked

Straight at me

I stood there frozen

Holding my coat

In my hand

Waiting for you

To take back

What you'd said

But you didn't

So I walked out

You didn't come after me

I told myself

"It's over."

I really meant it—

For about an hour

I should be able

To hate you by now

But I keep replaying

That night over and over—

The way you looked at me

Before you said it—

As if going back through it

Could change something

I know just how small

And miserable

You made me feel

I thought that someday

My love would turn

Into anger

But it hasn't

I should hate you by now

But I hate myself

For not being able to

Three days later

The phone rang

I let it keep ringing

I stared at your name

Until the screen went dark

It rang again

I answered

Neither of us

Said "Hello."

You said

"I'm sorry."

I wanted you to apologize

More desperately than that

Instead, I asked

"Did you mean it?"

You fell silent

For such a long time

And then you said

"No

But I knew

It would hurt you."

Those words

Hurt far more

I'm supposed

To hate you by now

You gave me

Plenty of reasons to

I know

This wasn't my fault

Even you know that

And yet

Why do I still

When you call my name

My strength

Just drains away

Why do I still

Want you to tell me

That you didn't mean it?

I'm supposed

To hate you by now

But my heart

Won't let go of you

My friends say

"Don't go back."

I answer

"I know."

They say

"There's someone better

Out there."

I know that too

That's not

What I don't understand

I understand everything

There's just one thing—

Why I still miss you

That's the only thing

I don't get

[Final Chorus]

I'm supposed

To hate you by now

Someday

Maybe I'll be able to

One morning

When I wake up

Maybe a day will come

When hearing your name

Doesn't stir my heart anymore

But tonight

I'm still angry

I'm still hurt

And somewhere deep down

Beneath those feelings

I still love you

I'm supposed

To hate you by now

But I still can't

Your last message

Says

"I'm sorry."

I haven't replied

I haven't delet