

わからないから聞いただけ
(I just asked because I didn't understand)
それなのに言われた言葉
(But the words they said to me)
幼稚園児に説明するみたい
("It's like I'm explaining it to a kindergartener")
その一言で心が折れた
(That one phrase broke my heart)
理解したくて必死だった
(I was desperate to understand)
仕事だから諦めたくなかった
(It was my job, so I didn't want to give up)
でも努力するほど嫌われて
(But the harder I tried, the more I was disliked)
関係は壊れていった
(The relationship fell apart)
幼稚園児じゃないのに バカにされる
(Even though I'm not a kindergartener, I'm made a fool of)
わからない自分を隠せなかった
(I couldn't hide the part of me that didn't understand)
辞めてしまうしかなくて また居場所を失う
(I had no choice but to quit, and I lose my place again)
生きることが苦しいだけ
(Just living is painful)
何度も仕事を辞めてきた
(I've quit my job so many times)
履歴書は空白だらけになった
(My resume is now full of blank spaces)
続けたい気持ちはあるのに
(Even though I have the desire to keep going)
普通の人にはなれなかった
(I could never become a normal person)
頑張れないんじゃない
(It's not that I can't try hard)
頑張っても追いつけないだけ
(It's just that even when I do, I can't keep up)
理解してほしいただそれだけ
(I just want to be understood, that's all)
それも叶わない
(But even that wish won't come true)
幼稚園児じゃないのに 子ども扱い
(Even though I'm not a kindergartener, I'm treated like a child)
必死に食らいついても届かない
(No matter how desperately I cling on, I can't reach)
続けられない仕事 壊れていく心
(A job I can't continue, a heart that's breaking)
普通に生きたいだけなのに
(Even though I just want to live a normal life)
怠けてるわけじゃない
(I'm not being lazy)
努力不足でもない
(And it's not a lack of effort)
ただ理解されないだけで
(Just from not being understood)
すべてが終わってしまう
(Everything comes to an end)
幼稚園児じゃないのに 泣きたくなる
(Even though I'm not a kindergartener, I feel like crying)
わからない僕を笑わないでほしい
(Please don't laugh at me for not understanding)
続けられない日々の中で
(In these days that I can't go on)
それでも生きたいと願ってる
(I'm still wishing that I want to live)
- Lyricist
Macky
- Composer
Macky
- Producer
Macky
- Vocals
Macky
- Songwriter
Macky

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Macky
Macky is an artist who pours his own struggles and vulnerabilities directly into music. Living with developmental disabilities, borderline intelligence, and panic disorder means facing daily challenges and invisible walls. Because he knows the pain and loneliness of such realities, he strongly wishes to create music that can truly resonate with and support those who are suffering in the same way. His music is characterized by powerful, dramatic sounds blended with a gentle warmth that embraces the listener. Each melody and lyric is crafted to make people feel they are not alone. Thoughts There are nights when you feel crushed by the sense that no matter how hard you try it is never enough, or that no one truly understands you. The hidden anxieties and loneliness you carry in silence - Mackys music is meant to softly reach those hearts, offering a little strength to face tomorrow. Message It is okay. You are not alone. Through his music, Macky hopes to deliver this message again and again.
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