Lyric
Not that I wanna die
SEESAW, 1rec.record
別おれ死にたい訳じゃないけど
漠然とした暗闇が
きらきらしてる人達が怖いのが
分からんやろお前らは
いつか報われる時が来るって
優しいその言葉が
今も俺らの胸に刺さって
抜けないんだ
抜けないんだ
稼ぐ為に生きてないが
金が無いと死ぬ
それは今の話だけじゃなくて
常に付きまとう
電車賃もない友達が
笑いながら生きてて
仕事帰り死んだ顔の
俺は指を咥えて
Hiphopも救ってくれないんだ
"見せびらかし"には興味が無い
ただ当たり前に生きたいが
それが難しいみたいだ今日び
本当は本気になりたいけれども
未来が頭によぎる夜通し
博打で勝っただけの奴らに言わせれば
頑張りが足りない今日
手元にあるのは
微々たる手取りとメロディ
僅かな成功の体験とは
再現性の薄いメモリー
外れたセオリー AとB
目を見る事すら苦手な世界
友人もいる 夢も見る
足りない訳では無いのが
迷子になるな
別おれ死にたい訳じゃないけど
漠然とした暗闇が
きらきらしてる人達が怖いのが
分からんやろお前らは
いつか報われる時が来るって
優しいその言葉が
今も俺らの胸に刺さって
抜けないんだ
抜けないんだ
目に見にえないもんにも
価値があることなら知ってる
けど手にした満足では
腹の足しにならないって言う
平気なフリをして
みんな朝の街に酔ってる
すげぇ気に食わなくて
すげぇ気に食わないぜ
マジ俺死にたい訳じゃないんよ
対して病んでる訳でもない
もっと辛い人達がいるとかは
知ったこっちゃ俺はないけど
小さな小さな針が沢山
生活に溢れていて
俺らの胸にはいつも刺さって
抜けないんだ
抜けない
それでも頑張れなんて言うんよ
お前らは沢山嘘を言うよ
なんとかなるなんて事は無い
散々もがいて地べたを生きて
知ったこっちゃもう無いけど
小さな小さな夢が沢山
目の前には溢れていて
現在の自分の姿が怖いよ
醜いんだ
醜いや
なにかが怖くて仕方がないよ
それがなにかすら分りゃしないけど
今生きてるだけで褒められたいよ
それが出来るなら苦労はないけど
- Lyricist
SEESAW
- Composer
1rec.record
- Producer
1rec.record
- Vocals
SEESAW
- Rap
SEESAW
- Choir
Yoshie Kurasawa
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Not that I wanna die
SEESAW, 1rec.record
I fell in love with 1rec.record's talent when I heard her song "Juni" on X (formerly Twitter), and after that we produced some short pieces of music together, and I felt that my own musical style and 1rec.record's beat went well together.
I had the lyrics and melody of the chorus in my head before I met 1rec.record, but it was difficult for me to arrange it myself, so I had to put it aside for a while. I asked him if he could somehow give shape to the song, and he readily agreed and produced it.
In the "Monthly Sound Source Release" project in 2023, the theme was to confront the deepest psychological level of one's inner self, and in a way, this is the culmination of that work.
Over the beat of a record produced with the image of "beats that don't interfere with lyrics and messages" in mind, the lyrics "I don't want to die, but..." sum up the idea of a person who cannot be categorized as either a strong or weak person in society, who cannot flex like a rapper because he is not strong. The song is about the dilemma of being on the side of people who don't belong anywhere, people who can't even be pitied by hip-hop because they're neither strong nor weak.
Spotify • New Music Everyday - tuneTracks (curated by TuneCore Japan) • 13 Jun 2024Artist Profile
SEESAW
Born in 1990 in Kumamoto, Japan and currently living in Chiba, Japan. His first encounter with hip-hop was in junior high school. He started his career in the countryside without any friends, and as a result he became a DIY artist, doing everything himself, including beats, recording, mixing, etc. As a beatmaker, he specializes in boombap-based chill sounds with jazz elements, and as a rapper, he is a versatile artist characterized by his skillful rapping and smooth flow. He was active in Tokyo and on the Internet as a solo artist, contributing songs to CREW and TORAUMA (rapper), but went on hiatus in 2023 after 4 years of inactivity, and was brought back to the surface by TORAUMA, and has been active as a solo artist with monthly releases ever since. In 2023, TORAUMA's "TSUBAKI", for which SEESAW had worked on beats in the past, created a buzz, especially on TikTok.
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In May 2020, he began his activities on Instagram and Twitter as an "artist who only creates one-minute songs. His creative style, in which he expresses an entire song in one minute, has an addictive quality that makes people want to play it over and over again. His activities are diverse, including video productions such as music videos and collaborations with artists from other genres.
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