I Was Drugged by My Ex

"I Was Drugged by My Ex" is a quiet, unflinching song about abuse that does not arrive as obvious violence, but as care, reassurance, and trust.

At the core of this song is not the question "Why didn't she escape?"
It is about how the ability to doubt, to judge, and to choose was slowly taken away.

The abuser is never loud or openly cruel.
Instead, he says "It's okay," "You're just tired," "This is for you."
Through those words, decisions are made on her behalf, emotions are numbed, and resistance fades-not because she agreed, but because thinking itself became impossible.

The repeated line "I was drugged by my ex" is not something the narrator understood in real time.
It is a realization that only comes after escaping.
While living inside the relationship, the situation did not feel abnormal-only safe, quiet, and controlled.
That delay in awareness weighs heavily over the entire song.

As the story unfolds, the song reveals a crucial truth:
what was broken was not the relationship, but her senses and judgment.
The lasting damage of control is not only physical or emotional-it is the fear of trusting one's own decisions afterward.

The outro avoids dramatic recovery.
Instead, it ends with something smaller and more real:
slow mornings, conscious breathing, choosing time for oneself.
Healing here is not heroic-it is careful, fragile, and deliberate.

This song does not accuse for spectacle.
It does not sensationalize trauma.

It quietly affirms this truth:

She was not weak.
She trusted.
And even now, as she double-checks every choice she makes,
she is still living-on her own terms.

It is a song that speaks for those who could not name what was happening at the time,
and gently leaves behind one message:

What happened was not your fault.