Lyric

I wish I loved you less

Just enough to let you go cold

嫌いになれたら、楽なのに

But my heart won't give me that

Anger should have made this easier

I gave it every chance to do its worst

I let every disappointment matter

I stopped making excuses where they hurt

There are things I haven't forgiven

Things I don't know if I ever will

But none of them have done me the favor

Of making what I feel for you go still

I thought pain would thin the feeling

Leave less of you for me to love

But hurt can change the way I see you

Without changing this enough

If I could hate you, I'd be lighter

I could let the anger have its way

I could turn every wound against you

Till there was nothing left to save

But I can't make love disappear

Just because I'm tired of carrying it

I have every reason to love you less

And somehow I still don't

Some days I almost want resentment

Something clean enough to cut this through

Something sharp enough to make me certain

I could finally feel less for you

But even anger keeps betraying me

It burns and leaves the love untouched

And I hate how much I still can miss you

When I've already hurt this much

I don't need another reason

I've collected more than enough

The cruelest part was never hurting

It's that hurting wasn't enough

If I could hate you, I'd be lighter

I could let the anger have its way

I could turn every wound against you

Till there was nothing left to save

But I can't make love disappear

Just because I'm tired of carrying it

I have every reason to love you less

And somehow I still don't

Maybe that's why I want to hate you

Because love is still the harder truth

I wouldn't need to wish it gone

If there were nothing left of you

And that thought hurts worse than anger

There is nowhere left to hide

Every time I wish I didn't love you

I'm admitting that I still do

If I could hate you, I'd be lighter

Maybe that's exactly why I can't

I can keep the anger if it's honest

I can keep the hurt for what it is

I don't have to call you innocent

I don't have to make the damage small

Loving you does not erase what hurt me

What hurt me doesn't erase it all

I am tired of fighting the feeling

Like the feeling is what did me wrong

I can wish that I could lose it

Without forcing it to be gone

嫌いになれたら、楽なのに

I still mean every word of it

But tonight I'll leave the feeling there

I don't have to make it disappear

I wish I loved you less

I don't