Lyric

My legs are heavy

As if bound in lead

Without thinking, I try rolling up

The cuffs of my pants

An unbearable malaise strikes my body

Unable to resist

I give up on moving at all

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer

I try explaining it to myself

The same old story about a deficit

Of monoamines or something

But that knowledge does nothing

To clear my own malaise

It’s an overwhelmingly gloomy

State of mind

A deep seriousness on a dimension

Completely different from sadness

It’s not that I "don't want

To do anything" —

I simply cannot do anything

Only my feelings rush ahead

And that impatience breeds

More anxiety

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer

I try persuading myself

The same old story that a day

Will come when things get better

But those words do not quiet

My own impatience

Suddenly, I begin to think

"I have no worth."

Not a social value, but the value

Of my very soul

It instantly connects to the question

Of "the meaning of life."

Sensing danger, I crawl deep

Beneath my blankets

僕はどうしてしまったんだろう

僕はこれからどうなるんだろう

Knowing the answer... or do I?

I try asking myself

But there is no giving an answer

To the meaning of life

Crashing into questions with

No answers, I am stuck, boiling over

Malaise, gloom, anxiety

And the questioning of life's meaning

No matter where I am, no matter when

They chase me down

I am losing even the places where

I can feel safe

Blindly searching for a place

I found myself standing on a hill

The vast sky, drifting clouds

And the wind blowing through

The clear blue sky seems to purify

My stagnation

Clouds changing shapes give softness

To my heart

The wind brushing my ear whispers

"It's okay to take your time."

This questioning from nature works

Better than any prescription drug

For me now

I should just slowly take back a heart

That is pure and flexible

Someday, I might even find

The meaning of living

When I was finally able to think

That way

The malaise and gloom, the anxiety

And impatience, and the worthlessness

That plagued me—

ほんの、ほんの少しだけ

I felt like they became

A little lighter

ほんの少しだけ

With these feet that became

A little more at ease, is fine

ほんの少しだけ

Toward a tomorrow where hope grows

I walk

ほんの、ほんの少しだけ

Toward the light that I could

Barely see, I walk

僕は歩いてく