

泡みたいに浮かぶ
私が手にした大事
落とさないように必死
拾い上げる隙間、無い
浮かび漂う日々
時々思う、無意味
好きなことだらけ必死
好きだから余計辛い
安心したいのに
安心できるのに
許してくれない
叫んだり、怒ったり、泣いて見せたり、
弱ければ楽になれたのに
一人で生きれる私は
誰の所為にも出来ない私だ
泡みたいに消える
あなたにもらった痛み
そちら多分気にしてる
それ故にバツが悪い
浮かび漂う日々
時々思う、無価値
こんな自分、割と好き
でも明日には嫌い
強い言葉をくれ 強い気持ちをくれ
半端に終わる前に
叫んだり、怒ったり、泣いて見せたり、
出来なくて腹立たしかったり、
迷ったり、笑って見せたり、
悲しくて口をついて出る
- Lyricist
pleasehitme
- Composer
pleasehitme
- Producer
Chillrenika
- Guitar
Chillrenika
- Bass Guitar
Chillrenika
- Drums
Chillrenika
- Keyboards
Chillrenika
- Vocals
Chillrenika

Listen to I Want to Go Home by Chillrenika
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I Want to Go Home
Chillrenika
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Don't Let Nostalgia Kill You
Chillrenika
- 3
Co-Creation of Life
Chillrenika
- 4
I Want to Walk
Chillrenika
"Life is troublesome and beautiful."
Capturing the contradictions of daily life through poetry and sound, the band Chillrenika, formed by lyricist/composer pleasehitme and vocalist Chika, known for her overwhelming expressive power, has released their first mini-album, "The Name of the Flower is the Past."
The album contains four tracks, including "I Want to Go Home" and "Co-Creation of Life," both of which were featured as insert songs in the 7th Newcomer Performance by the theater troupe Parade.
The first track, "I Want to Go Home," is an homage to school food punishment, a major influence for both pleasehitme and keyboardist yuji. It vividly reflects the underlying theme of the band: "the pain felt in everyday life." The lyrics are written based on Chika's emotions, and the line, "I, who can live alone, am someone who can blame no one but myself," mirrors what pleasehitme had felt toward Chika.
The second track, "Don't Let Nostalgia Kill You," is a rock number celebrating those who live carrying both the beauty and the pain of the past. The song is marked by yuji's repeating piano phrases and sora's swirling basslines. Its straightforward lyrics and Chika's powerful vocals make for a striking impression.
The third track, "Co-Creation of Life," is a moody piece themed around the idea that "to live together is to create together." Beginning with the line, "Maybe it's okay to just end it," the song delicately portrays emotions swaying between "Everything feels too troublesome" and "But I have no choice but to live," through Chika's nuanced vocal performance.
The fourth track, "I Want to Walk," was written by pleasehitme after the passing of their mother. Imagining the simple act of walking and talking together, the lyrics weave feelings of loss and the desire for dialogue. The structure-starting with just guitar and vocals, then expanding into a full band sound-expresses both the release of emotion and the quiet beauty of everyday life.