neglect

This track is an autobiographical work, a "musical novel" that translates my childhood memories and the environment I grew up in into a sonic plot. It began as an attempt to sublimate my personal background into art.
In the production process, my primary focus was recreating the "sights" and "sounds" I experienced back then. To express the contradictory sense of isolation"desperately wanting to be loved, yet never expecting anyone to come"I deliberately kept the composition monotonous, avoiding bold key changes. I felt that a light groove or smooth vocals would strip away the "distorted ambition" and "simmering emotions" that were swirling in my heart at the time.
The sound is built on jazzy chord progressions, with sharp strings that cut through the air like fragments of emotion. I intentionally incorporated white noise and tinnitus-like frequencies that have remained stuck in my memory. Furthermore, I took a multi-angled approach to pursue "irregularity within regularity"adding Over Drive to the saxophone to distort its tone and layering only the percussive "key-click" sounds of the piano.
Listeners may find the abrupt, fragmented vocal style and the intentional noise unsettling. However, that very discomfort is the reality of my younger self, staring at a television screen from the back of a closet. I hope this piece resonates with you, both as an intriguing musical experiment and as a visceral record of a human life.