Lyric

I could act like I don't miss you

But I'd rather say I do

I'm getting tired of looking fine

When all I really want is you

I've always known how to keep it easy

How to leave a little unsaid

Want you without sounding needy

Miss you without letting it show

I can make a feeling look smaller

Keep the sweetest part to myself

And maybe once that made me safer

Now it just feels like extra work

You don't need to pull it out of me

I don't need you to see right through

I'm just starting to wonder why

I still hide the obvious from you

I don't wanna play it cool with you

Not when I already know I care

If I miss you, I can say it

If I want you, you can hear it from me

I don't need to make love smaller

Just to look like I need it less

I can say the words I almost swallowed

And leave them there with you

There were times I liked the distance

Just enough to keep my balance mine

A little room between the feeling

And the words that made it real

But lately every careful answer

Feels less like me than what I mean

Why say “maybe” when I mean “come see me”?

Why say “fine” when I wanted you here?

Nothing happened to my composure

I can wear it if I choose

I just don't see much worth in keeping

Something I don't need with you

I don't wanna play it cool with you

Not when I already know I care

If I miss you, I can say it

If I want you, you can hear it from me

I don't need to make love smaller

Just to look like I need it less

I can say the words I almost swallowed

And leave them there with you

So yes, I missed you

More than I was going to say

Yes, I wanted to see you

Before you ever asked me to stay

And yes, sometimes I want more

Than my careful words would admit

There—now you know it

I don't feel any weaker for it

I don't wanna play it cool with you

I don't think I need it anymore

If I miss you, I'll just say it

If I want you, I won't hide the word

I wanted you here yesterday

I might want you here tomorrow

And if I'm thinking of you first

I don't have to wait for you to ask

Maybe I'll still catch myself sometimes

Saying less than what I really mean

Then I'll say the rest out loud

Before I turn it into “nothing”

No big confession, no big change

Just less pretending than before

I don't wanna play it cool anymore

At least not when it comes to you

I missed you

I wanted you to know