A song for R.

My one and only regret in life.

Being worn down by society,
I eventually lost my sense of self
and fell into mental illness.

During that time,
I hurt someone I should have cherished the most,
and in the end, I lost them.

Illness is truly frightening.
I never imagined that this could happen to me.

I betrayed them many times.
I hurt them again and again.
Even though I was the one who pushed them away,

it was only after they were gone
that I realized
how incredibly important they were to me.

But by then,
it was already too late.

Perhaps becoming ill
was something that couldn't be helped.
Maybe I simply couldn't adapt
to the world around me.

Still,
if there is only one regret
I carry in my life-

this is the one.

People around me often say
that I've lived a turbulent life.

But I do not regret anything else.
I truly don't.

This alone
is my one and only regret,
and nothing will ever surpass it.

That is why this song
is still very important to me,
and serves as a reminder to myself.

If you'd like, please listen.