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Lyric

shi -DEATH-

NEONATXL

あの音は　まだ鳴っている

けれど少し　前より遠い気がする

いつもと同じ　朝のはずなのに

指先が　少し重く感じる

呼吸の速さが　変わっていく

気づかないふりを　していたけれど

数えてみれば　確かに違う

以前と同じ　力じゃないみたい

それでも今日も　目を開けている

まだ、大丈夫だと　言い聞かせながら

鏡の中の　自分を見ても

何も変わらない　顔をしている

それでも内側で　何かが進む

止められないと　分かり始めてる

怖いという　感情より先に

身体が先に　答えを告げている

これは終わりだと　まだ言えないけど

確かに何かが　失われていく

弱くなる　この鼓動が

前と同じ　強さじゃないこと

数えるたびに　気づいてしまう

それでもまだ　止まってはいない

ただ少しずつ　力を失って

私の内側が　変わっていく

治そうとする　力はあるのに

追いつかないと　気づいてしまった

修復できない　場所が増えていく

それでも身体は　諦めていない

生きようとする　力と

失われていく　感覚が

同時にここに　存在してる

どちらも本当の　私自身

崩れていく　少しずつ

繋ぎとめても　ほどけていく

触れていたものが　遠ざかって

身体の輪郭さえ　薄れていく

それでも鼓動は　まだここにある

終わりの中でも　脈を刻んでる

止まっていく　一つ、また一つ

当たり前だったものが　消えていく

弱まる鼓動　途切れる呼吸

確かだったものが　離れていく

それでも最後まで　この身体は

生きようとしていた　確かに

意識が　薄れていく中

今、私は――

  • Lyricist

    NEONATXL

  • Composer

    NEONATXL

  • Producer

    NEONATXL

  • Vocals

    NEONATXL

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ANTINOMY

NEONATXL

NEONATXL's second album, "ANTINOMY."

The album explores antinomy-the coexistence of opposing forces that remain contradictory while continuing to exist within the same world.

The story begins with "EMERGENCE," where two distinct movements gradually reveal themselves from within what once appeared to be a single existence.

Fire and Water. Wind and Earth. Lightning and Ice. Light and Dark. Life and Death.

Across five opposing pairs, the album explores contrasting emotions, qualities, and states of existence.

Neither side is presented as inherently right, nor does one ultimately erase the other.
The two remain opposed, retaining their own identities until the very end.

The final track, "ANTINOMY," arrives not at a resolution of those contradictions, but at another possibility: opposing forces can remain exactly what they are and still exist together.

Spanning Punk Rock, Symphonic Electronic, Cyber Trance, Future Bass, Synthwave, Electronic Melodic Metal, Melodic Death Metal, Industrial Techno, Hyper Drum & Bass, and more, "ANTINOMY" is a 12-track concept album that explores a single idea through radically contrasting sounds.

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  • NEONATXL

    NEONATXL, pronounced Neo-Natal, is a solo artist who started from scratch, learning music along the way and turning stories, emotions, and imagined worlds into sound. Rather than being tied to a single genre, NEONATXL explores different sounds and styles depending on the story each song is meant to tell. At the heart of those stories is Rino, the voice of NEONATXL. More than just a vocalist, she is the heroine of the NEONATXL world, taking on different emotions and roles from one song to the next. From music production to artwork, visuals, and worldbuilding, every aspect of NEONATXL is self-produced using a wide range of creative tools, including AI. NEONATXL began with the release of NEON PULSE in 2026. Each song stands on its own, but there is always more to discover in the stories and connections between them.

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