歌詞

Even after a shower

The smell won’t wash away

A stranger’s trace

Still clings to my skin

Marks on the sheets

Pressed into my thighs

They don’t fade

As I put my makeup back on

Crumpled bills

Inside the locker

My fingers shake a little

As I count

My time divided by hourly pay

Cheap or expensive

I don’t think about it anymore

Called by a name

I put on a voice

How many times

Have I said “nice to meet you”?

Gentle or rough

It’s all the same

When it’s over

Just a silent door

I became a sex worker

Even when I’m touched

I feel nothing

Not feeling became the job

And only my heart

Keeps wearing down

I became a sex worker

Every time they say

“It’s an easy job”

Something breaks

Before this body does

A pale ring mark

Left on a finger

The smell of a family

Someone brings with them

“You’re not doing anything wrong,” you say

Then don’t come here

A flashy face

Staring back from the mirror

When I peel it off

Who am I again?

On the way home

I feel like throwing up

The convenience store lights

Are painfully bright

Did I get used to it

Or just go numb?

I don’t even care

Which it is anymore

As long as time passes

It turns into money

I became a sex worker

Looked down on

Sold at a high price

Dignity is just a word

Compared to this month’s rent

I became a sex worker

The better my smile gets

The quieter

My real voice becomes

“Why don’t you just quit?”

Don’t say it so easily

There’s no escape route left

I can walk through

I became a sex worker

I can’t be proud

But it isn’t a lie

I wasn’t dirty

I chose this

Before I was ruined

I became a sex worker

Nights when I’m afraid

Of morning coming

Still, I breathe

I survive

With makeup remover

I erase my face

What’s left in the end

Are bare eyes

This time

Not bought by anyone

This moment alone

Is mine