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I started composing music in April 2025.
Ever since I was a junior high school student, I wanted to create music, but the environment at the time did not allow it.
Now in my forties, I finally began this challenge in earnest, even though I had no prior musical experience.
I first composed about 25 instrumental tracks, and then moved on to creating Vocaloid songs.
At first, I lacked confidence, so I used Suno AI only as a reference for the chorus melody, while composing all other parts myself.
The melodies came together more naturally than I expected, and I was very satisfied with the result.
I struggled especially with the intro, but through trial and error, changing chords, adding breaks, and refining details. I found a version that truly felt right.
While studying city pop, I discovered an instrument called the clavinet and decided to use it in this song.
Its sound fit perfectly with the world of the track, and the final clavinet phrase at the end is my favorite part.
I once gave up on my dream, but now I have painted it again through sound.
The unforgettable violence I endured at the age of five, having my skin torn away countless times. The despair brought on by five separate periods of bullying. I experienced school refusal, which was rare at the time, and lived my life in profound isolation. My hope is that those who struggle with the pain of simply living, just as I did back then, can breathe even a little easier. To channel all of that pain into music, I began composing on April 5, 2025.